Thursday, September 13, 2007
I Love Books
I love new books.
I love the anticipation I feel when I hold a new book in my hands. I love the look of the clean, crisp book jacket. I love the smell of ink when you open the book. I love the crinkle sound the binding on the spine of the book makes when you open it for the first time.
I love used books.
I love the dog-eared pages, the coffee stains, the notations in the margins. I love the deeply creased bindings, evidence of others who have read the book before me.
Did I mention that I love books?
I always turn first to the dedication page. It gives me insight into the author. Is the book dedicated to his/her spouse, mother, first grade teacher or dog? If, due to some huge miracle I were ever to publish, I would put much thought into the dedication page. In fact, I've already written the dedication page for two books as yet unwritten!
(Cookbook)
To my mom, who taught me the basics, including the importance of following a recipe.
To my husband, who taught me so much more, including the importance of putting the recipe away and winging it!
(Hiking Memories and Photographs)
To the three special women who shared in my first backpacking trip.
To Cathy, who innocently asked me one day "Do you want to go backpacking?"
To Leanna, who took me up the side of my first mountain, bereft of any facsimile of a trail.
To Barbara, who taught me there is such a thing as "Happy Hour" in the wilderness, even when there is no ice.
I was introduced to books at an early age. I was lucky enough to have a mother who not only read to me, but more importantly, read with passion. "Read with expression" she would tell us. She taught by example, her dramatic reading of "The Three Little Kittens" still resonates in my memory. I doubt most people have heard of "Sally in Our Ally," but in our family it was a standard. Dr. Seuss books were another favorite, the rhyming stories giving my mother an outlet for her dramatic tendencies.
I read every Nancy Drew mystery published. Friends whose fathers made more money than mine purchased a new book every month. I made do with the books my mother bought at a yard sale. Thick, purple bound books with no pictures on the cover, I was embarrased to lend them to my friends, as their books were smaller and sleeker with color pictures of Nancy on the front. I kept my Nancy Drew collection for years, rarely remembering the treasure I had stored in dusty boxes in the garage. These books made the move from California to Arizona, back to California again before I eventually gave them away, their dusty pages covered in mold.
I savored every word written by Walter Farley in his "Black Stallion" series. I longed to be Alex, clinging aboard the back of the galloping black stallion on a faraway deserted island beach.
When I was eleven, I participated in our church's effort to "Read the Bible Through in 1962." For thirty minutes every morning and evening I would sit in traction (fondly nicknamed the neck stretcher), prescribed after I injured my neck in a car accident. My Bible in my lap, I would read alternately from the Old Testament and then the New, dutifully check off the chapters as I read them. I was mesmerized, rereading the stories I had been taught in Sunday School, and discovering people and stories I hadn't yet been taught.
During my high school and college years I read book after book, some required reading, some not. I read and reread "Gone With The Wind." The runaway best seller transported me back in time to the days of the old South, to the Civil War and the subsequent restoration, into the lives of Rhett, Scarlett, Ashley and Melanie. I could imagine myself dancing next to Scarlett at one of the grand parties at Tara or Twelve Oaks, waited on by servants, oblivious to the approaching storm forming in the North. I longed for her to find happiness in Ashley's arms. I wept with her at the death of her beloved daughter Bonnie Blue. I felt her loneliness and heartache when Rhett left her for the final time.
I enjoy hanging out at thebookcart.com. It's a simple concept. You register those paperback books you no longer want into a data base. The person who requested the book gets a debit for $2.50 ($2 goes as a credit to the provider, and $ .50 goes to the "donkey" for carrots (i.e. the web site). It costs under $2 to send a paperback in the mail.
www.thebookcart.com/
Another site I like is www.bookcrossing.com
n. the practice of leaving a book in a public place to be picked up and read by others, who then do likewise. (added to the Concise Oxford English Dictionary in August 2004)
www.bookcrossing.com/
Did I mention I love books?
Friday, August 31, 2007
Instant Gratification
Lo and Behold , two or three weeks later your pictures were developed and miraculously sitting in your mailbox, waiting for you to look at them.
Fast forward forty years.
Now we grab our digital camera. We think nothing of firing off numerous exposures of the same thing, hoping to get that "perfect" picture for our Christmas cards. Heck, why not, it doesn't "cost" anything to shoot twenty or thirty exposures instead of that one or possibly two we would have taken in the "old days." We grab our laptop, insert the memory card, and right before our eyes we have the photos we just shot, ready for our viewing. Instant gratification!
Change. It's inherent. And sometimes it's even good!
Tuesday, June 19, 2007
Happy Father's Day, Daddy
The words have a certain melancholy feel to them.
My Dad has been gone over 20 years now.
Yet I feel his presence daily.
Every time I see someone treat somebody with fairness and kindness, I think of my Dad.
Every time I see someone working hard to provide for his family, I think of my Dad.
Every time I see someone teach his child to swim, I think of my Dad.
Every time I see someone reading a newspaper with a dog curled by his side, I think of my Dad.
Every time I see someone taking out the trash, I think of my Dad.
Every time I see someone doing the dishes after a hard day at work, I think of my Dad.
Every time I see someone pull a practical joke on somebody else, I think of my Dad.
Every time I see someone working long hours at his desk, I think of my Dad.
Every time I see someone proudly watching their child play sports or perform in a school or church production, I think of my Dad.
Every time I think of my Dad, I thank God for the privilege of having been his daughter.
Happy Father's Day, Daddy.
Wednesday, May 30, 2007
Tag, You're It!
"Here's how this little exercise in randomness works:
Grab the book closest to you. Turn to page 161, and type the fifth complete sentence on your blog."
The book I'm currently reading is The Audacity of Hope by Barack Obama. (Yep, I'm one of them there Democrats!)
"Money does matter in education--otherwise why would parents pay so much to live in well-funded suburban school districts?--and many urban and rural schools still suffer from overcrowded classrooms, outdated books, inadequate equipment, and teachers who are forced to pay out of pocket for basic supplies."
I think you see this one coming -- "TAG, YOU'RE IT!"
Saturday, February 24, 2007
Early Morning Awakening
I glanced at the alarm clock, which cheerfully informed me it was 3:10 a.m. Way too early, even for an early bird like me. I groaned and turned back over, pulling the covers up under my chin.
The glow of the streetlamp outside our bedroom window made it easy for me to make out the pile of covers on the other side of the bed where my husband slept soundly. I could hear the hum of his CPAP machine, recently added to our bedroom as a result of his sleep apnea. His beloved Ashley, a chihuahua/pug mix was curled up at the end of the bed.
There didn’t appear to be anything out of the ordinary.
I sighed and tried to bury my head in the pillow, hoping to drift off to sleep again.
And then I felt it.
A gently, loving tongue was caressing the back of my neck. No, not now, I thought. I have to work in the morning. Just give me a few more hours sleep.
But he was not to be discouraged.
I gave in, and rolled over to say good morning.
Charlie, our new five month old wire-haired dachshund, was awake!
Sunday, September 24, 2006
Once Was Lost, But Now Is Found
Fast forward nine months to this weekend's cleaning spree. And you'll never guess what I found in one of the bags of recipes, grocery lists, junk mail, etc. You betcha---my once lost gift card is found!
Now to combine it with one of their famous 40% off coupons and go shopping!
Late Night Reading
So it's after 1am and here I sit, reading cookbooks from cover to cover (is there any other way to read a cookbook?)
Dream Dinners...Life Just Got Easier! and Super Suppers Cookbook (both based on the popular "assemble-and-freeze" places that seem to be popping up everywhere these days).
I can't wait to try them!
Sunday, September 17, 2006
Red Hat Saturday

My Red Hat friend, Jan, & I had a delightful day Saturday! It was a full 12 hours from the time she picked me up in EG till she dropped me back off. Amtrak was rather slow we thought, but that gave us more time for chatting on the way in (and sleeping on the way back!)
The Ferry Building and outdoor farmer's market were wonderful! We both came back with our tote bags overflowing. http://www.ferrybuildingmarketplace.com/
It was hard to choose a place to eat, but we finally settled on Ferry Plaza Seafood. Good choice, Jan! She let me pick the wine, and I paired a nice pinot grigio with our seafood. http://www.ferryplazaseafood.com/
We couldn't get enough of the fresh produce (although it was definitely higher priced than the farmer's markets here!) $3 a pound for dry farmed tomatoes, but they were worth every penny! Lots of the vendors gave out samples, and the peaches were a sure bet after we tasted them---summer in every bite! Let's see, Jan came home with some nice looking potatoes and a loaf of asiago cheese bread that kept calling her name all day! I think she ended up with some really fresh looking green beans as well. I brought home some fingerling potatoes and a loaf of green onion bread (yes, Jan, my dinner sandwich was awesome!) and a loaf of sourdough we'll use today for "buns" for hamburgers. We bought a couple of desserts, Jan a brownie, and me a raspberry macaroon that we munched on while walking about and people watching. Lots of olive oil and vinegar tasting to be had as well.
Did I leave anything out, Jan?
My first "real" train ride, and I must say trying to figure out the timetable was an experience in itself! I was amazed how clean and well maintained both train stations were (I guess I was thinking more along the line of Greyhound bus terminals! (~_~)
Tuesday, September 12, 2006
First Time Ever I Saw Your Face
"I must capture this memory," I thought to myself. And then I decided that I would always have my picture taken the first time I held a new grandbaby.
What I didn't know then is the memory of that precious moment--all seven of them (so far!)--would be indelibly kept deep in my mind and heart forever.
Saturday, September 09, 2006
Deja Vu
It was a “deja vu” moment.
Climbing into the car this morning for an early morning grocery shopping trip, I was hit with the thought “this is what it felt like to start our annual summer vacation to Grandma’s in Seattle.”
What was it?
The hint of fall in the morning, reminding me of every coastal morning I ever awoke to?
The dog curled up in the back seat?
The dew on the window?
The moon still visible in the dark sky?
I closed my eyes and could see mom in the front seat, her hair smelling like the fried chicken she had just prepared and placed in the ice chests, now wedged inbetween her feet and the bags of other snacks for the trip. My dad at the wheel, having just caught a few hours of sleep after a hard day’s work.
All it was missing was a parcel of siblings, brown grocery bags full of our summer clothes, a younger sister sprawled across our laps, another sister’s Humpty Dumpty stuffed down between us so Mom couldn’t see that he had been smuggled into the back seat, where space was always a premium.
Wednesday, July 26, 2006
The Four Stages of Grief
Life is busy, and isn't that a good thing? Else I might find myself playing "Why Me, God?" in the aftermath of Rollin's stroke.
I've been thinking and reading a lot lately on the four stages of grief (denial, anger, depression and acceptance). I'm trying to move past #3, and finally decided I had to do SOMETHING, so attended a stroke survivor group meeting held at Kaiser. After a brief time together, they split into two groups, surviviors, and caregivers (that's me!). They of course wanted to hear my story (I kinda felt like what you might say at an AA meeting, you know..."Hi, my name is Susan. (~_~)
It was amazing to see them all start to nod and smile as I related my story....been there, done that, all of them! It was encouraging to know that!
I came away with a new sense of what the stroke had really done to Rollin, and a few coping strategies. Hopefully it makes a difference in our relationship, and the general atmosphere around the house!
Friday, February 03, 2006
I Am From (LUES)
(Loleta Union Elementary School)
I am from the LUES Class of 1964, a class of thirty-six, the largest to-date graduating class. From six honor students, Kathee, Renee, Susan, Greg, Sham, and Bill. From my graduation speech "Get that All Important High School Diploma".
From an era when the school mascot was the Beaver (in green and white) and not the current Cougar (in maroon and white).
I am from my teachers. From Mrs. Eva Stahl, who made the class stay in at recess one day because I wouldn’t confess that I was the one who had thrown my uneaten egg salad sandwich under the lunch table.
From Mrs. Loretta Snyder, who I don’t remember much about, except that she was a warm and loving teacher.
From Mrs. Jean Bennett, who I only had for about 2 weeks in 3rd grade before I was "skipped" a grade level.
From Mrs. Mildred Gregg, who was very stern and would rap you across the knuckles with a ruler if you misbehaved.
From Mrs. Esther Carr, who I had for both fifth and sixth grades. (She and her husband--his name was Tom, I found out years later--took a trip to Hawaii just after it became a state. Back than he was the very skinny quiet Mr. Carr, married to a very large and loud woman, but it seemed to work for them. Their Hawaii trip was the inspiration for her every-other-year annual Hawaiian Luau. Mothers would be assigned dishes to bring--I still have Mom’s copy of sukiyaki and rice pilaf somewhere--and girls would learn the hula).
From Mr. Floyd Mauney (AKA "Four Fingers") who, after I was out of his class, suffered a heart attack on a hike with his wife, Mrs. Bonita Mauney and died. Mrs. Mauney later married "Red" Mc Marin, the bus driver and custodian.
From Mr. James Cochrane in 8th grade, who was also our principal and attended our church. He had a heart attack that year (which he survived and later went on to teach in a Lima, Peru missionary kid’s school) and was replaced by Mr. Robert Riffenburg, whose wife would later be my high school home economics teacher.
From Mr. Swerdlow for speech, a place where I went to try to pronounce my "J’s" correctly, so I could say I was Susie James, and not Susie Games. From band leaders Mr. Madelena and then Mrs. Swackhammer.
I am from the ChatterBox (especially song dedications back and forth from me and Linda--"Big Girls Don't Cry". From the "Did You Know" column, where I was featured one week ("Did you know Susan James always has a peanut butter and jelly sandwich for lunch?" From the time they passed out the newspaper and then frantically picked them back up again. When they were redistributed, Karl Erickson's answer to "What would you do to make the US a better place?" had been blacked out. (answer "Get rid of the President"--this was on Friday, Nov 22, 1963, the day John Fitzgerald Kennedy was assassinated).
I am from the Tidepools, the every-other-year field trip for the 7th and 8th graders to an orchard in Petrolia . From breaking into groups of four (me, Renee, Kathee, and Terri). From the skits around the Friday night campfire (ours was miming and dancing to "Going to the Chapel of Love"). From pllanning your meals (Kathee and Terri, the Catholics, "Oh that's OK, we can have bacon for breakfast Friday morning, we'll just go to confession when we get home"). From bringing your tidepool treasures back to camp (can you believe they used to let you pick that stuff up and take it out of the natural environment?). From boiling the sea urchins over the campfile until the needles fell off. From using the latrine the fathers would dig for us, from Mom laying in traction in the back of the little trailer. From Carolyn Jones (one of the older and wiser 8th graders) making sure you were packing Kotex. Of course I didn't need them yet, but Terri Thompson said "That's OK, I'll bring mine." Show off! From the big orchard where we set up our tents, girls on one side, boys on the other, and probably the chaperones in the middle!
I am from playing last string basketball, and only playing a couple of minutes each game (because back then it wasn’t about winning or losing, but how you played the game), but Mom was always there to do (more than) her share of carpooling.
I am from teachers breathing a sigh of relief when one of us entered their classroom, because they now had Mom, who volunteered for anything and everything. From car pooling to class room parties, when she would make sugar cookies in heart shapes, and lovingly frost each one with white frosting and inscribe each person's name on one in bright pink frosting. From a mother who brought extra cookies and would personalize them at the last minute, for preschoolers who attended their siblings parties. From her sugar eggs at Easter, from countless Valentine's Days and Halloween and Christmas parties.
I am from mini milk cartons, from Tuesday Bank Days, from Scholastic book orders and SRA reading cards. From band concerts and graduation at the Fireman's Pavillion. From Safety Commissioners and crosswalk duties. From flagpole raisings, and stop signs on long poles. From one long whistle blast for stop, two short blasts for go.
I am from a place where your friends stopped by your house in the morning, to "walk" you to school. From Ray who had a knack for always finding the hair brush, usually stuffed down couch cushions. From the seemingly insurmountable hill you had to climb to get to the schoolyard. From crosswalks and safety patrol officers, from whistles (one long whistle to go, two short blasts to stop) and stop signs.
I am from a place of infinite memories. From a safe haven of learning and growing, a place that would spawn (due to Mom's frequent lunchtime absences due to carpooling duties) Dad’s display of displeasure, written in red sharpie marker on the hallwall sheetrock of the little house where we all grew up – "This haphazard method of me getting no lunch has got to cease."
Tuesday, January 31, 2006
I Am From (Paper Route)
I am from Mrs Biondini, where Carol had to hand deliver the newspaper to her porch because she didn't want the newspaper to make a black mark on her door., the same lady who ironed her son's blue jeans till there was a crease down the front of the leg. From Mrs. Wagner's (who lived down Franklin as far as you could go and then turned left, the road curved down and around and they were tucked in the curve) popcorns balls on Halloween "one per person please" and chocolate covered cherries at Christmas. From Mom taking over John’s route because he was sick in bed with asthma and running over Ida Martin's mailbox, and Dad going out in the rain to replace it. From Blackie and all the other dogs on the route, from those who were tethered, and from those who weren't.
I am from upper route, middle route, lower route, from a sister who couldn't ride a bicycle, from a time where only boys could have a route, from a time where it was safe to go door-to-door to make your monthly collections.
Sunday, January 29, 2006
I am From (Summers in Seattle)
I am from Saturday night popcorn and Black Cherry Kool-Aid,. From a truck farm with blueberry bushes and strawberry plants. From peanut butter sandwiches and honey. From picking wild huckleberries in the woods and raspberries at Aunt Clara's.
I am from a week at Aunt Cora's and Aunt Rosie's, and Uncle Eddie's Packard. From Rick and Barbie, from Aunt Cora's "female surgery" and seeing "It's A Mad, Mad, Mad, Mad, World." on a 180 degree screen. From Ronny and Agnes and Concentration and Go Fish on the front lawn. From plastic swimming pools and picnics at Juanita Beach. From accidentially brushing my teeth with Uncle Jim's Brylcream. From Elaine and Saturday nights at the Laundromat; from coke dispensed from a machine into tiny paper cups, from tiny boxes of Tide. From Pike's Market and the Ballard Locks; from the Seafair Parade and hydroplane races. From Woodland Park Zoo and plastic elephant keys. From lima beans and candy bar bribes. From Salvation Army and 25 cent turquoise ballet flats. From "It's a big chicken" and family reunions. From a place where a mailman would deliver Dad's letter to Mom, a letter addressed to "Granny Goose."
I am from Willie and Tillie, the mallard ducks, and Pepper, the spotted horse who never foaled, but always looked like the would. From banty chickens hatched in a box on my lap. From "That's not Susie!", "Eat your green beans," and "Don't sit on the couch with your buckle shoes." From "My hamburger is rare', Susan said sadly. 'I'll burn it up,' Grandma then said madly."
I am from a Grandmother who knew the value of a dollar, and a Grandfather who knew how to spend one.
I am from the boarding house and 16613 North Road.
I am from summers in Seattle.
Sunday, January 15, 2006
100 Things To Do Before I Die
1. Take an Alaskan cruise
2. See the leaves change color in New England
3. Swim with a dolphin.
4. Go to an authentic New England Clambake
5. Skinny Dip
6. Eat in New Orleans French Quarter
7. Learn to Waltz
8. Make love in the Redwood forests of California
9. Picnic in Tuscany.
10. Sleep in a house on a cliff above the Pacific Ocean, with giant windows to enjoy the view
11. See a Broadway show in NYC
12. Send a message in a bottle.
13. Camp in Yosemite
14. Sit on a jury.
15. Write an article/short story, etc and have it published
16. See "Old Faithful" spout
17. Shower in a waterfall.
18. Volunteer and teach someone illiterate to read
19. Spend New Year's in an exotic location.
20. Get passionate about a cause and spend time helping it, instead of just thinking about it.
21. Sing karaoke and not worry that I can't carry a tune!
22. Drive across America from coast to coast.
23. Write my will.
24. Sleep under the stars on the beach
25. Spend a whole day in bed ----- reading!
26. Drive the Autobahn and not be scared
27. Spend Christmas in Hawaii
28. Take a cooking class
29. Raft through the Grand Canyon.
30. Donate money and put my name on something like a brick in a neighborhood park
31. Visit the Statue of Liberty
32. See Stonehenge
33. Be debt free
34. Go to the top of the Space Needle
35. Go to the top of the Empire State Building
36. Ride in a horse-drawn carriage
37. Hike at least part of the Appalachian Trail
38. See a tornado.
39. See tigers in the wild.
40. Fly first class
41. Backpack in Europe
42. Set foot in all 50 states
43. Tour the White House
44. Get a tattoo
45. Tour the USS Arizona memorial at Pearl Harbor
46. Take a ride in a sailboat
47. Ride a gondola in Venice (second best, in Las Vegas)
48. View the Mona Lisa at the Louvre in Paris
49. See the Aurora Borealis (Northern Lights)
50. Take a ride on a steamboat
51. Attend a mystery dinner party
Friday, January 13, 2006
I am from aluminum christmas trees and colorwheels, from paper garlands and angels on top.
I am from artificial Christmas trees, from plastic wreaths and pine scent in a can.
I am from the silk Pointsetta plant and plastic mistletoe hanging in the doorway.
I am from new pajamas on Christmas Eve, opening one present on Christmas Eve, and milk and cookies left out for Santa. From writing thank you notes before you could use your gifts. From champagne bubble bath and bath oil beads. From Dad's gifts, always big red handkerchiefs and white painter hats and socks we'd later make monkeys out of. From waking up early on Christmas morning and opening your stocking, and then going back to bed. From the time Mom let me help fill the stockings for the younger kids, but she still filled mine so I would be surprised.
From "You'd better go to sleep, or Santa won't come" and "you HAVE to believe in Santa or he won't bring you presents."
I am from Christmas Cantatas, Greg Thompsen singing "O Holy Night" and "Away in a Manager." From Jr. Choir robes with freshly pressed red bows. From a Baby who came to save us and give us life eternal.
From Christmas caroling, from hayrides and hot chocolate. From Christmas programs (when they were still called CHRISTMAS programs) at the fireman's hall, from chorus after chorus of Jingle Bells sung while waiting for Santa to arrive on a big red firetruck, from bags of hard candy, an apple and an orange.
I'm from the Nutty Nuggets Mom made every year and her homemade Butter Crunch Toffee and Confetti Bread. From sugar cookies and Mom's vast collection of cookie cutters, from bowls of colored frosting and sprinkles. From Agnes' chocolate dipped creams. From Mary's leftover Ice Cream Snowballs with candles. From popcorn balls, peppermint ice cream and too many cookies. From the time the turkey wasn't ready when we were, of sitting down to a holiday feast of "the sides" and turkey later that night.
From the time Dad "rewrapped" Uncle Eddie's present to Judy, covering the mpeccably wrapped gift with brown paper bags, and baling rope. From bicycles with streamers, from roller skates with black and pink pompoms. From new Bibles, charm bracelets, and new underwear.
I am from boxes of Christmas decorations, carefully packed away in boxes in the attic, from homemade ornaments lovingly saved year after year, from green and red paper cut into strips and Elmer's Glue to hold them together.
I am From.....
I am from the little house on the corner that Dad built and lived in with his mother, and the bigger house across the street--the house with ceramic tile in the hallway and in the bathrooms, and in the built-in vanity my mother never used.
I am from the Pacific Ocean and the Redwood forests of California. From magnolia trees and freshly mown grass, from dusty miller, nasturtiums and geraniums, from hydrangeas and red and white rose bushes, rows of corn and hills of potatoes. From tomatoes and peas in pods, from a well-stocked pantry of pumpkin, Dinty Moore stew and string beans my Mom put up in jars.
I am from Saturday night popcorn and Kool Aid, singing in the car, hamburgers five-for-a-dollar, Skate Night, creamery whistles and two pairs of shoes.
I am from the "Sweet" side of the family, from those who hugged and those who didn’t. From Grandma Susan and Grandma Pearl, but not Elizabeth Ann. From an aunt who loved me unconditionally, and a funny uncle who loved me inappropriately.
I am from iceberg lettuce wedges, tomato soup salad dressing, and turkey dinner holidays. From mounds of homemade French fries, bags of artichokes, and fresh Dungeness crab when it was in season. From gallon jars of Joe’s leftover crab cipppino, and Mary’s Swiss Dance sponge cake.
I am from honesty and the golden rule, from paying for your hot dog at Louie's, from respecting your elders and watching out for your little sisters.
I am from He Lives, When the Roll is Called Up Yonder, In the Garden, and The Old Rugged Cross. From Reverends Lanning, Lokkesmoe, and Cole. From Daily Vacation Bible School and plaster of paris plaques, from Good News Club and memory verses and Sunday night youth meetings.
I am from Swauger’s Station, from "a pleasant place at the end of the water," from a "peaceful verdant valley where the land of plenty lies." From mill towns and logging towns and dairy farmers, from participants in the Oklahoma Land Rush, from strawberry farmers and carpenters and owners of boarding houses and motels. From LUES class of 1964 and FUHS class of 1968.
I am from pictures stored in drawers, from family reunions and stories told and retold, from the legend of Jesse James.
Thursday, December 29, 2005
Know Yourself
'Know Yourself' quiz.
1. What do you want? I've never "wanted" a lot. I'm hard to buy gifts for. I don't window shop, I don't make list of things I'd buy if I won the lottery. I want the intangibles, I want to be loved, to be happy, to see my children and grandchildren do the same.
2. What do you need? I need peace, tranquility, things that haven't been in great abundance since Rolly's stroke.
3. What is your greatest fear? I fear being alone in my old age. I was just 17 when Rolly and I married back in 1968. We've been together 37 years now, through the good times and the bad. I can't imagine life without him, as hard as the last 8 months have been on us and our relationship.
4. What is your dearest wish?That the "big bad stroke" had passed us by!
5. What do you need to be happy? Little things. Someone to sit on the couch with me at night, ask me how my day was, enjoy a TV show and a glass of wine with. A new book. A new trail to hike. An adventure waiting to happen.
6. What is your ambition? To make the most of what life has given me. I don't want a fancy career or a million dollars. I want to be happy in my own way, surrounded by my family and good friends.
7. What is your greatest talent? Hard one. Tangible things--cooking, grandparenting. Intangible things--seeing the beauty in little things, enjoying nature.
8. What is your most formidable obstacle? Empathizing with Rolly and all he has gone through. I try, but I can't really put myself in his shoes and feel his frustration and despair.
9. Who is your worst enemy? I'm sure there are people who are not terrible fond of me, but I hope no one "hates" me. Life is indeed too short for such nonsense!
10. With what part of your life are you satisfied? Raising our children to be responsible, interesting adults. They are truly the light of my life.
11. What is your misery in life?I like this saying. "Pain is inevitable. Suffering is optional." I choose not to wallow in the misery.
12. What part of your life would you change? I'd have had my Dad stick around longer. He was 74 when he died, but since he was 16 years older than my Mom, and died when I was 35. I wish he'd been around to see me mature, to see my children grow up into adults, and to know his great grandchildren.
13. What part of your life would you change in the next year? Reduce the clutter in our lives. Physically, we've downsized greatly this year, and that has helped. I need to get some rid of "mental clutter."
14. What is your mission? Truly to leave this world a better place because I was here.
Tuesday, December 20, 2005
Merry Christmas.....NOT Happy Holidays!
If it weren't for Jesus, the "reason for the season", we wouldn't be celebrating Christmas, so what's wrong with calling it what it is?
This country was founded on religious freedom.
Let me express it in my own way.
If you celebrate a different holiday, or none at all, I'm really OK with that.
Just don't take away MY right to celebrate my chosen holiday!
Whew, I'm better now! (~_~)
Monday, November 21, 2005
My day from H#&^
Older son and family were down this weekend. He noticed his Dad has a mole on his face that looks irregular, and he hadn't really noticed it before. So I've got a call in to the VA for an emergency appointment for that. I leave for 2 weeks on the 1st so need to get it looked at ASAP!
Then I got to work and had forgotten my glasses. Got through the morning OK, a few dumb mistakes cause I couldn't see, so decided to run home at lunch and get them. That took up nearly all my lunch hour, so drove through Taco Bell--Of course once I got in the drive through line, I reached for my purse and had left it at work! Scrounged up enough change out of the ashtray (only thing we use it for! (~_~) for a taco and nachos and a glass of water.
Realized I had a heck of a headache (no doubt from forgetting my glasses) so resolved to take a couple of ibuprofen when I got back to work. That made me remember I'd forgotten to take my BP and allergy pills this morning!
Got back to work and decided to through the bag of trash out of my car. Walked over to the dumpster, gave a heave, and realized I had just let go of the taco bell bag, not the trash bag!
This day can not end quickly enough!